Friday, September 17, 2010

dearest mom


my mom..she's the sweetest in the whole world. At least she is, to me. Today however, was not what you'd call a good day. I'd had a bad day in college and my mood was in the dumps. I was snapping at everyone coming within inches of my space. Of course,being the generous giver that I am, I manged to extend my hearty deposition into them. I reached home much more (if possible) peeved than I was in college, particularly due to the dog next door who was always bent on having at least half of my backside in his jaws and I was too stubborn to give up that!! Unfortunately, my dear dad picked up this stupid stupid day itself to lose his damn wallet. well, dad was the one who lost it, and mom was the one who was worrying about it. I know this sounds insensitive, but I wasn't much bothered. Two reasons-(1)I always have this positive attitude sticking into me. Unless my dad had somehow managed to lose the wallet in the dump yard or somewhere likewise, I was positively sure he would find it exactly where he had left it in his office. (2) I was too busy wallowing in self pity about my problems to pay much attention to dad's worry.
Well so what happened was, I innocently walked into my room and dropped into my chair, ready to doze off. Mind, I didn't speak a word. And my "sweet" mom started steaming off. Maybe I was there handy and she wanted to take her frustration over someone, whatever. She came to me and just blasted off,"YOU HAVE THE SAME TENDENCY OF LOSING THINGS JUST LIKE YOUR DAD!! YOU GOT IT FROM HIM". I was so shocked, I jumped out of my chair in my half sleepy mode and almost stumbled to the floor. I was staring blankly at her and managed to mumble the words "what the hell did I do?". Big mistake. Never use curse words in your mom's presence. I learnt my lesson that day when she went on and on and on and on, about this about that etc, etc, etc..S my sweet mom blamed me for practically everything; from- for not being responsible about my wallet which I had lost some days ago- to not putting my clothes into the dryer to the walls getting wet patches during bad weather(now don't ask me how the hell that happens to be my fault, I really have no idea). She didn't blame me for the hot weather though,'cos that was remaining. She probably would have too, if the Rain God hadn't decided to make a drizzling appearance at that particular moment. Like any normal human being, I tried to argue, but she wouldn't let me open my mouth! "Back answering!!!" she would shout. So. I kept my mouth shut, switched on my PC and wrote this blog. Don't actually care how many people read it or if they find it amusing or intersting or boring or whatever the heck, but it sure makes me feel better and takes the load off my back.
Now my point is, my mom is actually a very sweet woman, but she gets angry very fast. I've learnt a very early lesson not to argue but my human nature intrudes every time I decide this and rushed into my mouth to defend myself.
Nevertheless, I'm going to try to keep my mouth shut when my mom starts blasting at me because, after all, she's older than me; and I love her too!!! (:
She scolds me, blames me, in general makes me mad; but hse also cares for me, nurtures me and in general gives me all the love I need, all the advice I need to face 'the cruel world out there'!! So even though I'm extremely mad at you right now; I will always love you in my heart and always know your precious value to me mom!!!